One Last Day...

With a crash of those drums you know it’s begun

The beginning to the end.

With munchkins on ropes and Glinda that floats

The fairytale descends.

With a magical tick tock of the time dragon clock

Costume changes go in a flash.

Morrible turns very mean as Elphie turns rather green

And quickly makes her assent.

Fiyero turns somewhat brainless as Boq looses his heart

While Nessa is finding her feet.

After Elphie’s Lament, a final cat fight in Oz;

In a puff of smoke comes last scene.

Now their time spent in Oz was a thing to behold

Another night gone of dancing and singing.

In a whirling haze they’d taken to the stage

And set people straight on the story.

When next morning arrived the only ticking that survived

Was that of the bedside alarm.

The dream they had lived in at that glorious theatre

May have finished but won’t be forgotten.

Just Look How Far I Have Come...

Well, I was a little shocked to see that it had in fact been almost a week since I last updated *Shocking* and even worse, I am now trying to remember what I did with my days...

Saw "The Kings Speech" a few times, brilliant film, if you've not seen it I advise you do. Also finally got to see "Burlesque". Well as lovely and entertaining as the film was, it wasn't really a proper portrayal to the world of Burlesque, or what you do. I can see girls watching and thinking 'you know what, I'd like to do that'. Girls, it involves stripteases, not show however in the film! Check it out before you make choices.

Saw Brendan Cole live, "Live and Unjudged" amazing and talented guy - again, if you can get tickets do. A show definitely not to be missed.

Highlight of the week, probably today. Went to London, two auditions. One I was apparently too thin for, well I shan't complain although I was ever so slightly miffed. First time I am apparently thin in my life and it means I can't get a role I wanted. Other, I was offered the role but it is only three weeks in May this year, goodness knows what I'll be doing in four months time... but now is the time that I have to make the choice, I think I will sleep on it first.

After met up with lil sis and went to see Legally Blonde the Musical. Not my first time, as I am sure you are all aware, but it was for her, and am pleased to say seeing the 'new cast' led by Susan McFadden as the Delta Nu sweetheart Elle Woods, having taken over from "2 Pints" star Sheridan Smith it was refreshing to see a different take on the character, just a let down that the audience appeared to only wake up at curtain call.

Stars of the show for me today had to be Suzie McLean who plays Enid Hoops and Jane McMurtrie who is usually seen in the backgrounds as a Swing, but is also the dance captain and I think there are only two female roles I haven't seen her cover, but today was on as Exercise and Fitness Queen Brooke Windham.

It was lovely to once again meet cast after the show, and speaking to Jane I think my quote of the day had to be:

"There has to be something feisty about her for them to believe she is possibly able to kill her husband. Its all about there being something in the eyes."

She may not play Brooke full time, and was covering for Tamara Wall, who this week started filming with the cast of EastEnders, but she sure shows her depth of knowledge into each and every character she's come up against to play. Between Tamara, Suzie and Jane they could probably do a 'Three Woman Show' of it and still get it done perfectly!

While it was lovely to see older faces there, there were some new ones this including Nicola Brazil who has taken over from McFadden in the role of Serena UCLA's Sorority Cheerleader. She seemed a little nervous, but with this being her first week, who can blame her?

Never Loose Hope

I know, I said I was going to write this every day, but I find that perhaps that was a little ambitious and perhaps I should have said something like making sure I update at least once a week, seems a little more realistic for me!

So Friday I had auditions and an Interview, still waiting to hear back from two of them, but I loved the experience once more, was knackered. My own fault seeing as I found I didn't actually sleep the night before.

Yesterday I had Nikki's funeral which was nice, I can't exactly say it was lovely seeing as she was 21 and it shouldn't have been happening for AT LEAST another eighty or so years.

Most shocking news to hear was that Susan McFadden, currently lead in the West End hit Musical Legally Blonde as Elle Woods is not top of the bill. It seems that the producers are wanting Denise Van Outen's 'big name' to bring in the crowds. Seems some what disrespectful though, unless they were worried to loose Denise prematurely if she wasn't down as top of the bill.

Sad thing is, it isn't Paulette's story, it is Elle's and for that reason it is a disgrace that they should put a supporting actress at the top, simply because Susan has only just got to the top! Working on how the West End currently seems to be working, does that mean that there is a chance Danielle Hope won't be top of the bill for "The Wizard of Oz"? I think not.

With Denise leaving in April, all eyes are waiting to see who is to replace her as bubbly hairdresser Paulette in the musical, though many fans angered by Susan being knocked off of the top spot speculate, and probably correctly so that it'll be another 'big name' and someone else to top the bill.

As I tweeted last night "I think the West End needs to remember that talent doesn't come from the name. You remember the name because of the talent."

Whatever next, "Paulette the Musical"?

Time To Let Go

Okay, so I feel as though I let myself down a little yesterday as I forgot to post this in the right time zone as it to still show it was Thursday. However, with having to admit this fail, I am on the vurge of heading to bed to get some much needed beauty sleep before a busy day tomorrow of interviews and auditions! When I said as a joke to someone that the world was always busy for me, I can see now I wasn't kidding.


So for now I head to sleep, but here is another little snip it of 'Ladies of the West End'

By twenty one I’d been on the West End, ensemble only, worked as an Extra with the BBC and even had some back-stage experience within West End Theatres. My dreams achieved in two decades and summed up in one sentence. My oldest friend Tom, I know a male friend. I can assure you that he is not gay, and we have never been together in that way either. No he’s into Star Wars, Star Trek? I don’t know exactly, all things space, whatever could get him away from coursework as quickly as possibly I guess. But despite people looking at us and wondering what on earth we had in common it worked. I think a bizarre love of Family Guy, late nights and liking a wide range in music genre helped. He once said to me “You can achieve what you Dream.” He was really there for me during the lowest parts of my life. Don’t think he actually realises how grateful I am about that. And there was once chemistry between us, I mean, when you are studying for A-Levels, listening to music as you try to study, hormones all over the place you’re going to feel it; difference is, we loved the friendship too much to ruin it with a relationship.

I feel my little introduction to Tom has thrown me off course a little. There was a time one January that Tom I think for the first time worried about me. Jo, Rachel, Megan and I had moved to London and another girl called Nicola; we all loved the same things. Weekends if we were all off we’d head to the West End and find a show to see, our little ‘group’ tended to seem so normal to performers that they loved to have us in the audience, made the really weird OTTF (over the top freaks) seem a little less, intense. Once Megan had got her first job working in the production of Spring Awakening we tended to be meeting more and more ‘Celebs’. Weirdest feeling ever, just to let you know. I don’t think anything could prepare you for the feelings you’ll go through as the transaction of Fan to Friend occurs. You tend to forget that they are human just like us.

China in Your Hands

I was going to spend this blog talking about last night's episode of Holby City, with in depth analysis of the complex relationships between Penny and Frieda, Jac and Joseph and Chrissie and Sasha - but although we said goodbye to another fantastic character and talented actor Luke Roberts and seeing some rather emotional and moving acting from Rosie Marcel I feel that the weak plots leave little for me to say other then I hope they keep hold of Frieda Petrenko played by Olga Fedori who is current up for NTA's best Newcomer.

News of the day for me, was getting a call from one of my Girlie's Mum's to tell me that on Saturday night she passed away having battled with Leukemia for a while. I don't think it has quite set in yet, you can't just forget someone and all your memories with them come flooding back. Makes me feel ashamed that the last time I saw her was August 2009 as life became busy with work and University and although we spoke on a regular basis she kept from me just how bad things had got. I can see her now saying that she didn't tell me because she didn't want me to worry. She knows I'd have dropped everything to go spend time with her if she'd let me. It was always "Not this weekend babe." Now it's too late.

I feel selfish too for saying that I actually hurt. I've had elderly relatives die, but the youngest before them was Dad at the age of 37 when I was 9.... this is completely different. She was only 21, 22 next month! I got her to see Wicked and was going to get her tickets to see Ghost when it comes out, she had a huge soft spot for Richard Fleeshman, I never heard the last of it when I said I'd seen him in Legally Blonde. Feels a bit too creepy to go see Ghost now, I'll see.

Doctor, Doctor

I bit the bullet today and went to see my Doctor despite my reservations. Turns out he wanted to see me anyway - Saturday is Doctor's D-day!!

After waiting for the telephone interview I have two more on Friday, this should be interesting, perhaps I am just too opinionated?

Rather loved not having to rush about today however, meant I was able to meet up with friends for Lunch and almost seemed a lady of leisure; I'll get back to you on what I really think about that.

Another new years resolution to be completed soon, am looking at joining a Gym, just got to choose which one, New Year starts when I join for that resolution, Pizza and alcohol tonight with friends, just what the doctor ordered!

It's a New Dawn, It's a New Day

Back into the swing of a new week and although I'd love to get out and actually start to sort things out, I am bound here till I have received a phone call Interview which could be anytime within the next 48 hours; specific, I know!
Most of the day spent on Twitter and Facebook, which not trying to sort out rooms here, it's like spring came early with all this 'spring cleaning' and now as the rain thunders down outside I find myself thinking about dinner and perhaps a little singing while I try and finish off tidying the bedroom, how boring am I?
I think the most exciting news was that Posh Spice is Pregnant or should I still be concerned that Jar Jar Binks has 'come out' as a bisexual. I don't see what the big deal is over it all. They are normal people like the rest of us, or is that my problem; actually treating everyone as equals?!

Song that inspired today's title and today in general is Michael Bublé with 'Feeling Good'.

Also sent out to friends the first 1000 words of "Ladies of the West End"... here's a sneaky clip for you all!

In life people say it’s who you know, not what you know. I’m not too sure I believe that is so true anymore. Looking around at those I have come to know, some that I’ve even come to love; I see people that have simply been born lucky, or had things happen to them by chance. When I look at some of my friends, even some of my family Shakespeare comes to mind. I’m not saying that any of them look at all like him, though give my uncle a few years and the hair could be receding just as much. But one of Shakespeare’s most famous quotes, used again and again by so many people: “Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them.”

I think one of the greatest things to be thrust upon us all, as a global population is technology, the internet and the world wide reach that it brings to our fingertips... social networking! I find myself saying that it is thanks to these networks that I have some of my closest friends. Several of my closest friends. I tend to layer my friendships, though it may not always be for the best interest of my heart, or sanity for that matter. But I find that it leaves me feeling protected, less likely to be hurt. Less likely to be able to hurt others.

We didn’t start out as close as we are now; we only tended to meet at some weird social gathering around stage doors of West End theatres. Finding someone that didn’t seem too mad, that someone that you could talk to about the sets, costumes, songs, dance routines... the stars.

When I was a little girl, that’s all I wanted to be. Although my mother wasn’t interested my grandparents caught me dancing around the lounge to one of their South Pacific venal on full. Not really knowing or even understanding the words but mumbling along while dancing around, having raided my grandmother’s wardrobe and dressed in her special occasions outfit. I had big dreams of being on the stage; everything just felt like it was calling to me. The lights, make up, music, the dancing; oh how I loved the dancing. That’s really where it all begun for me. My grandparents took me to see a ballet show at the local theatre, it wasn’t anything grand like you find of the West End, or Broadway for that matter. But it was enough for me.

It's a work in progress, but I have to say I am rather proud to say that it feels like it is going somewhere. Will try write more tonight and post another snip it tomorrow.